it's a new day



there are hearts all around us...

today is like a new day for me, a new beginning...no more hiding the truth about me or any body else..

 i was what you call a dry drunk for 18 years, pretty noble right, and then i decided that i needed to have some fun and went out on what they call a run, it was that bad, i didn;t smoke crack or anything just the old favorites pot and booze.....pot is not a bad thing , but when you are smoking 24/7 non stop, well to say the lest life gets fruzzy...........and who wants to be that.....i did not realize until now how much harm that shit can do to one's brain.......and trust me it does not make you more creative.....the best art i made i made when i was sober, because what came out of me was real, not clouded, it was truly able to flow from the soul.....and not the drug......i feel like it is my birthday, i can't tell you how happy i woke up this morning, and you know what i got off my chest............GUILT............cuz not only was i using but i felt guilty and bad about it, cuz i know it was not the right thing for me to be doing...............so god as always since i was 8 and we fought the devil that tried to claim me, and won, we will win again, i know i have a strange relationship to with you, but it is a great one and the one that has lasted the longest.....and god when you can't be with me send the angels....i feel so very mighty right now......