monday,monday, monday

the fuck you plant

first let me say i will never ever stop saying the word fuck....i know it is not nice in polite society, but it is a world that i have come to love and by no means when i use does it have any sexual connotation,,,,,i think it is one of the most versatile words the english language has.....i wrote a book about it.....so when i say fuck i was going to say don't get offended, but who am i to tell you want to feel and think...you are all free to have your own thoughts.....
     a wise man once told me you add just as much suffering to the world when you take offence ,or when you give it, maybe even more.

     now more about me, cuz the reality of it is , is that it is all about me, i am a little shaky right now, i want to get back to joisy to get my cats, i am not a cat lady but i do miss them and i need to get some clothes and stuff.  i figured it out now that  i won't be able to move everything out until feburuary 20th.  the superbowl is in the way and i have a doctor's appointment that is not going to allow me to do it any sooner.....the thing that i miss the most is my studio......and not being able to play and create the way i want.  i have been making scarves, that i think i will sell on etsy....i did list a few things on there and i have a lot more to list......i am even thinking about opening up a ebay store again, i used to have one, but i closed it, cuz the people were just a tad insane,and i can't afford insanity in my life now......i have been through so many changes in 3 years, and i need to rest and recover, yes for those of you who can understand, i went back into recovery......i gave up 18 years for nothing, but more heartache....and i want to do things that i have always wanted to do.....and some of them i have begun and some i am still working on.......AND I AM GOING TO SAY THIS I AM NOT GOING TO BE AFRAID TO ASK ANYONE FOR HELP ANYMORE,IF I NEED ADVICE, I AM GOING TO ASK, IF I NEED HELP WITH SOMETHING I AM GOING TO ASK, AND I AN GOING TO NETWORK MY ASS OFF, BUT IN MY PERSONAL AND BUSINESS LIFE......I HAVE TO REMEMBER I LIVE IN AMERICA AND WE DO HAVE A FREE ENTERPRISE.......

and there is 2 people that i have to thank for saving my life again one knows it, the other one don't and i would like to thank them and i will i just can't yet, because some are sicker then others and i don't think that they could handle it so maybe when the time comes and i can do it with as little emotion as possible i will send them a lovely thank you note, a real one on real paper, and i just might make it ....no i will how can an artist buy a hallmark card when i can make my own......i now know the reason i winded up here, i needed to get sober again.......and not be a dry drunk this time. THE GOOD NEWS IS THAT I NEVER LEFT GOD AND HE NEVER LEFT ME......I MIGHT 2 GOOD GUYS FRIENDS.....AND I AM FINALLY MEETING WOMEN UP HERE THAT I CAN ACTUALLY RELATE TO......AND BELONGING TO ANY GROUP IS A GOOD THING.....YOU NEVER KNOW, WHO HAS A JOB FOR YOU, IT IS A GOOD PLACE TO NETWORK AND GET WELL ...PART OF RECOVERY IS HELPING OTHERS AND REACHING OUT YOUR OWN HAND......AS IN EVERYTHING IN LIFE, YOU GET WHAT YOU PUT OUT.....i truly believe what goes around comes around....and i have been on both ends.......and i just have to leave today with this  "JOSEPHINE BE CAREFUL OF SMALL MEN WITH BIG IDEAS"  thank you U2, in so many ways you have keep me on the spiritual track......i wish all of you the most wonderful day and stop complaining about the cold,,,,,,cuz in a few months you'll be complaining about the heat.....

and just one more not all the photo's that are here unless otherwise noted are mine and copyrighted, please don't use without permission......all that were asked were granted as long as i get credit.......be well and healthy