when one door opens

got to love them doors.......keep your eyes on the road and your hands upon the wheel.....let it roll baby, roll......


On this day, God wants you to know

... that when you come to a wall, you can either climb it, or you can simply walk around until you find a door. Don't make life so hard, - look for the doors!..
 
ok it has been a long strange week, and it wasn't even my strangeness this time....on thing really flipped me through a loop in a way i didn't except it too.....and i guess that is a grown up thing.....cuz i put someone's else's feelings for someone else, in front of my own.....and truly felt sadness for them...when a bitch of a woman would have been happy......but i have always believed that even through people come into my life and i like them more than i should, or like them in a different way than i do.....i have always let people live their live;s without any interference from me......i remember the butterfly story from long ago......i let my children be free, and know as older teens.....their getting it ....thank god i didn't have to wait until they were in their 30's......but then again i don't know what lessons other people are supposed to learn....i am still trying to figure out what all the lessons that i have learned and how to apply them now.....but as my ex husband always told me take the high road......and i always like to do things with grace and honor.....but sometimes it doesn't always work.....but that is my aim......but honor is important on my list and people that people honor themselves and don't let people play real life games with them.....and sometimes you have to know when to close the door, so another can open........but what if a closed door, became open....should i take that door , or pick one of the other too........i don't have the strength to make another wrong decision of the heart....cuz i really just started liking men again.....for a long time i could have cared less.....and then i might a really kool guy.....and he opened my life again, in so many ways that his youth would never know how much.........and that is a day that was open for 3.5 years and it has closed......for no reason.....except the time has come....and that relationship was unacceptable to me.....now there is someone i have had my eye in since the day i meet them and when i met him my whole body just said you just met your next husband, and for those of you that know me.....you know i have never looked for husband......i enjoy my time....it's the fucking artist thing......but it is not the time, to everything.......so i have to find another door for awhile.......and it doesn't have to be a relationship door......how about it's time for a fucking artist door, gallery studio door......oh and i had to crunch numbers and i can't take bigger space but that doesn't stop me....i will always be an artist and i have to redo my spot again......but anyway....i just had to write this down.....and i don't want it to be a hard knock life anymore, so i am looking for the doors...........i do take a lot of pictures of doors and windows...